молам, помогни ми.

hello.

i just think that you need to know how fucked up I become.

I don't know what am I now.

I don't live like a human, I don't live like a ghost.

I will still feel happy when I can go out and chill.

I will still feel happy when I get a better result than expected.

I will still feel happy when there are people buy me something.

I will still feel happy when you finally text me, although it leads to the end.

But they don't last long.

Define long here: 5 minutes.

When I finally laughed happily,

I feel the goosebumps, 

and then,

please tell me why I feel the wet in my eyes.

But they won't come out,

in reverse, 

they're going in my heart.

I guess that's the reason why my heart is so heavy.

It turned out that human's heart is so strong.

It won't die.

It will still hurt, everytime.

Please help me.

I really don't know anymore now.

I feel empty everytime, everynight, everyday.

I found an opposite sex version of me.

But he is even cruel than me,

he is even sad than me,

he need more help than me.

Funny is,

I understand him more than he expected.

But, it's the end.

I am so tired.

I can't find any solution.

I can't help me.

And nobody can.

Please.

I really want to leave here.

( the first time i posted a picture on tumblr not because i find it sad )

( because i find it real )

( define us )