S n o w m e n ;

Thank you for still staying by my side 

Even I told you the worst thing I have ever done to myself.

For going through my tough period with me together

For holding me every time I'm going to crumble down.

For always tolerating my bad tempered

For past 6 years giving me warmth and advice.

For being my gossip partners,

and sorry if I've ever hurt you, 

hope you know that I don't intend to hurt you.

For backing me up every time I got hurt,

For being the one flash through my mind every time I'm crying,

For having the same mind as me,

For being patience with me when I started teasing you every time.

Thank you,

All of you,

For still being here even I gave 1,000 reasons for you to leave.

DC 7

I will probably am still another negative minded person,
Living in her own hatred and suicidal universe,

If I have never met you.

You are the one who make me believe that I am stronger as I thought

Who make me realize how blessed am I

Even though,

My life is still full of shits.

(Which, still, dragging me down until this moment)

Bare with me, 

I'm very thankful that you actually exist,

and, even, you are mine.

I may be (definitely is) possessive, jealousy and sort of drama,

but please remember every time when I said how not matching are we,

I still want you.

Thank you for being there for me.

And thank you for not minding that.

I really have no idea how can I find such a blessing in life.

In - Humane

How and why trying to make your love one happy,

May result in a severe outcome that caused by the one you trying to make happy.

It's so unfair.

It's unfair that I used to love you so much I did something I never did before,

But you treat me like an object, rather than a person.

Not talking about the person you loved, cause maybe you never did.

But I'm not treated as a human.

18

感觉是在被迫着长大

不是心甘情愿地长大

不是快乐地接受长大

没有想要珍惜长大了可以做的事情

也没有觉得自己是在18岁的阶段

I don't know where am I.

I don't feel like an 18 years old.

I don't know where am I now.

I am restricted like a child.

But is forced to face some adult shits that I don't want to face.

And when I wanted to claim that I am still a child,

As the treatment I get telling me so,

As everyone in school do think I am a kid,

I have zero idea,

Why am I forced to sacrifice what I want and what I need.

To satisfy something that everyone think is necessary but not for me.

And to cure your mistakes.

I have no idea.

Why am I doing this.

And why am I here.

And why am I a human.

When I do not want to be one since my 15.

Sorry for calling,

and sorry for not answering when you called me back.

I don't know but I guess I may be a little bit of crazy sometimes.

Unwanted

I feel like an unwanted child.

Even though I am no longer a child,

and even though, 

I may be wanted.

But still,

I feel like an unwanted child.

Feel like Christmas.

Been through days without you.

But can't imagine the days without you after you.

Time always past so fast when I'm with you.

Kinda like it, but most of the time I hate it.

You know, I really hate saying goodbye.

To anyone, and especially you.

I can't wait til the day.

"Why would you call me babe instead of other nicknames?"

More & More

Thank you.

For everything, literally,

Everything.

For putting up with my shits during pms.

For saying I'm beautiful.

For trying hard to cheer me up even though you are not in the mood too.

For offering to send me home although it is already 12.30 in the midnight.

For offering to bring me some food although it is 3 in the morning.

For responding to my stupid topics.

For giving response when I'm trying to put up a fight, when you can actually just leave.

Thank you.

For everything that you actually are not obligated to do.

But you did.

sic parvis magna

b a b e

-

s i c   p a r v i s   m a g n a

4th of July

You said,
"You are too good."
"sometimes I think that I don't deserve you."
"I'm so lucky to have you."

But I want to tell you that,
I think you are too good for me too.
And sometimes I do think I don't deserve you too.
And I always think I'm lucky to have you.


Happy Birthday,
Love.