私のせい

I loved him so hard

until it hurts me.

But now I am over it.

And nobody is happy.

Maybe everyone out there wants my life to be miserable.

Maybe I don't deserve to live happily.

Maybe I should just die.

ノー

I'm so fed up.

and tired.

and exhasted.

"arrogant"

"trying hard"

"wannabe"

they labeled me.

But they never approach me.

They never approach me, I never get the chance to be nice.

They never know I cry at night when he didn't text me.

They don't know I stayed up to 5am because I'm struggling to text him, or not.

They don't know. 

But they labeled.

They think they know.

But they hurted me.

Hurt me so bad.

Cause I don't mean to be arrogant.

I don't mean to be sad all the time.

I don't mean to think I don't deserve to be treated nice.

I don't mean to think it's all my fault when people don't greet me all of a sudden.

I don't mean to be a pessimist.

But I really do think that I am unwanted.

"I think I have a very serious attitude problem."

"Why you think that so?"

"I don't know."

Cause every single one makes me think I am wrong

In every single thing.

あまりにも心配

So hard to don't care about what others think of myself.

So hard to not to cry.

So hard to be happy again.

So hard to not feel small.

So hard to have positive mind.

I'm so attached to negative thoughts.

時間ハエ

好怀念的那年。

两年

就这样过去了

可是我好像还活在过去。

一つの質問

Hey.

I came here to ask a question.

Why do feelings faded so fast?

焼肉

hello

"it's okay to be sad sometimes."
"But it's not okay to be sad everytime, isn't it?"


Btw, it's so hard for me to understand whatthefuck is on a guy's mind.
Teach me please.

レゴ

其实挺希望这个感觉是真实的。

"Last long" wish means a lot nowadays.

And it's dark and a cold December,

But I've got you to keep me warm.

Happy 2015 by the way.