Dont judge cause i am the only one who know myself well. No worries i wont say that i am special or something else bullshit cause i find that ridiculous.
First of all, I'm an asshole and I'm mean as hell. If I'd never be mean to you before, there's only 1 probability, I don't want to talk to you. And if I don't want to talk to you, there's only 2 probabilities, you annoyed me or you made me blush.
I am a paranoia, and I suspect every single person around me, don't really care who you are, include my family.
If something happened and it bother me for so long, for sure, those who is in that incident must be bloody hell important to me.
I find some quotes define me really well.
"If I say I mean it, I really fucking mean it." , "if I gave you 3 chances, don't hope that I will give you the forth one."
I can't lie, and if I lied, I can't hold it more than 1day. If I did, that it means the truth actually hurt every single important one around me, or maybe just me.
I can let things go easily if I find that I am not important to them as how important they are to me. Seriously, do what I did to you back to me, no matter bad or nice, if I did that to you before I will accept it, if I didn't, don't fool around with me, as what I said, I can let things go easily, friendship as well. Cause I love myself the most. I am not afraid to say that.
I have bad tempered, I do everything fast, if someone think too much, then I will burst out cause I find that annoying.
I keep a lot of things to myself, I wasn't like this before, idky hahaha. It makes me sad tho. Cause I realized I actually trust no one haha. Sometimes i tried to give it out, then I realized the one I was talking to, don't really give shits. It hurts. Because you find yourself ridiculous, you listen to them, but they don't really give shits about your life.
I am sensitive, like seriously. I can't take it when people trying to look at my face. Cause I know they will notice my flaw. Haha. so, for those who reading this, don't look at my face next time, look at my collarbone hahahahah wtf.
Ego, selfish, self-centered.
They say everyone will grow up within a night during teenage year. I guess it was my form 2, hahahahha. And I guess I actually didn't completely forget about it. I think a lot after that. And then I have my own concept of love. To me, love is actually just a kind of trade. Idk. You fall in him because he treats you differently, and you like how he treats you and he likes how you treats him. Humans are scared of loneliness that's why they need a person accompany them, but what if we are not afraid of loneliness. We actually don't really need that someone. But maybe we should. Yinyang concept says it all.
I treat every people almost in the same way, except best friends. If you find me don't always talk to you, sometimes did sometimes didn't. It means you annoyed me, or you make me blush. If I reply your text with short text, means you annoyed me, or you make me shy. If I treat you really bad, I don't always smile at you but sometimes I did. It means I hate you and I find you creepy or DAYUMMMM. hahahha
I hate people touching me. So don't fucking touch me OK. And I get flattered easily lol don't judge.
Sorry this description so long cause I find that people think I'm strange. And yeah, I self-pity k bye.
To be continued lol
